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So begins another school year..

I can't be myself anymore because people will be watching me. I can't turn my back on anyone anymore. I can't do anything anymore. A lot of people will be watching my actions this quarter, so I have to be weary. Well, it's not that I have to be weary, but I don't want to be labeled. I've been so miserable lately and I know it shows. I don't socialize. I keep to myself. I'm anti-social in a social setting. I feel like I'm sinking into depression again. I don't know what I'm doing. I don't know what I want.

I'll fix myself on my own, but in the meantime, I can't show how miserable I am anymore. Only when I'm at home behind closed doors. God, this blows.

Actually, I know why I'm depressed. I'm just in complete denial. Depression, the state in which one one is subjected to negativity and the inability to care about taking care of oneself. I'm feeling it.

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satsucake
Sep. 28th, 2008 08:21 pm (UTC)
heyy2, don't care about what they think about you. you know yourself more than anyone ^^
pixkie
Sep. 28th, 2008 09:07 pm (UTC)
I wish I could do that, but I'm lilbro/bigbro chair this term for my frat. I've got to make sure I smile and seem approachable or else our new pledges won't feel welcome. lol. Did you know that just by (forcing yourself into) smiling, you make yourself feel better? ;P
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